If you were following my Second Grade pilot this past school year, you will notice a long silence starting in January. That’s when my dad had his first stroke and parts of my life went on hold. He had another stroke in January and then a third at the end of February, and died on March 30.
April, May, and June were for healing myself, being there for my mom, and doing the best I could to end the school year on a strong and positive note. I was very close to my dad and watching what he went through was hell. Plus, his first stroke was on the very day that I had a fantastic meeting with a school principal in Tenino, Washington, and was feeling great about Growing Writers. Part of me was terrified about another bad thing happening if I experienced more success. The unconscious mind was saying, “Yeah, be careful how much good you allow in your life because every time something good happens, something bad will follow.”
Then one day my sister asked me to clarify “good” and “bad”. I realized that my dad passing away was not necessarily bad. It was hard, but it was also having an effect on our family in some positive ways. My mom was learning new skills like how to put gas in the car and handle finances, and making some new friends. My dad’s illness and death showed us how many true friends he had and how wonderful and generous people can be. It was forcing me to look at how I want to live the rest of my life and things I wanted to change.
Also, putting the meeting that made me feel good in the “good” box could be untrue as well. Maybe it created false hope. Maybe it would lead to nothing.
By the time I had let go of this good/bad mindset and was ready to start blogging, marketing, and improving Growing Writers again, it was time for report cards and wrapping up the year.
If you are planning to do the 2018-19 Second Grade pilot, it will be available at the end of August. Second grade teachers, please try it out and read my posts about using it starting in October! I’m already looking forward to Year 5 of work on second grade. You will love how it is coming together.